I realized today that I titled this blog "My Boobs TRIED to Kill Me", as if it were in the past, over and done. I know this is a war I've just entered and my intention is to win it. Battle #1 takes place Tuesday and is the mastectomy, reconstruction and lymph node dissections. Battle #2 will depend on what the results of the lymph node dissection is.
This is for the long haul and I know that. There's not a day that goes by that I don't realize I have to find a new "normal". It started on Friday, February 17 and until the end of my life I will always be referred to as either having cancer or being "cancer-free". In either case, the word cancer is permanently tied to me from here on out. And while I do realize the cancer could ultimately win and take my life - so could driving to work every day. (did you see the idiots on Highway 31 last week when I-65 was closed and detoured through Hartselle? - I rest my case.) For now, I'll continue to use the past tense that they TRIED to kill me, but haven't succeeded.
Praying for a smooth procedure and a speedy recovery, and I have no doubts that the past tense title if your blog is correct! You are gonna kick the big C's butt, it won't have any idea what hit IT!
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